WARNING : FIFTH BLOG

"What the Duce?"

It’s sometimes hard to imagine that all the great things you have done go unappreciated. It happens to me sometimes, but that's not what I am going to talk about. I am going to talk about being too small and young to be appreciated. To have all these great ideas, but lack the resource and respect to carry them out. I can say it is pure torture.
Being alone in the dark is sometimes fun and nice. It’s quiet. It’s peaceful. It is lonely. But here's what you don't hear about being in the light and around people. You end up being just a simple peon like the rest of the people. Doing and carrying out orders, working your butts off to have a good family and a nice home. You then spend the rest of your retirement years wondering what else you could have done or what things you have already done.
To be a simple spec in the story that is life is what we are meant to be. It is what we have always been doing for the past thousands of years. But there are also some people who could overcome the fact that they are just some insignificant part of human history, and become history. For starters, there was Genghis Khan. He was a Mongol tribal chief's son, who ended up ruling the greatest empire the world has ever known. His empire was the largest of any empire at any time, stretching from the far reaches of China and Russia all the way to Eastern Europe and the Middle East.
It is a gift to be able to do what he did. To see what others did not see. To be a great history, and to be the heart of an empire. To be the greatest man of his time, and to be a living legend for later generations to listen and learn to.
And yet, what am I now? Just a simple fool who dreams? Or am I a visionary who sees what is to come and controls the faith of humanity? Am I to remain this insignificant? Will I ever be reborn into a new creature, one that has stepped beyond the boundaries of humanity? One who has lost all things that bound humanity to remain insignificant, and gained wings to take flight and evolve into something else? Will I ever know?
Well I'll tell you what I do know. It is that I shall one day be what I dream of becomming. I will have what I want. I will be the person I seek. No. I will be the creature that I seek. Beyond human. Beyond insignificance. To be history.